Monday, April 30, 2012

Same old, great old.

Right, that's it. I'm still here. I was skulking and hiding, but a couple of kind readers have prompted me out of lurking. It had gotten to the point that I wouldn't even click on my blog pages, so embarrassed was I, that they were no longer updated.

Everything is mostly the same, but in a good way. In a great way. I still savour my health like only the recovered can. The kids are growing up happy and well-cared for. Hugh is 3 and a half, Tess has just turned 2. Nice Man is still nice to me.

Part of my hiding is due to my ambivalence about the way the Internet can take over your life: hours of your time can fall down the hole that is, 'Just checking my email/facebook/twitter feed'.

Recently I was at a wedding where there was a designated twitter page and guests were tweeting from one side of the room to the next. Some people love that stuff. The bride and groom were happy cyber geeks. Fair do's, and 'them to their fancy and me to my nancy', but frankly, I'm happier in real time, rather than parallel web time.

That's also a vain way of saying that this ubiquitous web-stickiness drives me nuts. Sometimes  I am tempted to poke Nice Man with a random gardening tool if he tweets when we're on one of our average family-fun days out: something like buying emulsion at B&Q or getting lost at motorway junctions. Here's a recent article by journo, Graham Spiers, saying how his wife gets grumpy when he gets carried away tweeting.

Well, what else have I got to say? So much that I don't know where to begin. If I can resist the coy urge to hide again, I will try and see what gives in future posts. One thing at a time.

Tomorrow night I'll head out to my new local bookgroup. We read Caitlin Moran's How to Be a Woman. I loved it much more than I thought I would. I was always a believer in equality - ie a feminist, but the book has opened my eyes to so many parts of life where we need to nuture that equality. When something breaks around the house, Tess will say, 'man fix it?' Yes, I say, or maybe a lady.



Sue Jackson said...

So nice to hear from you again, Ciara! And so wonderful to hear how great things are for you. I am so very happy for you.

I am also glad to hear you are enjoying a book group - I belong to 2 and sometimes go to the one at my local library, too! I don't know if you know this, but besides the CFS blog, I also have 2 book blogs. Coincidentally, I have been reading lots of UK-written books lately - 3 in a row now and all great!

I agree about the internet - I haven't really been keeping up with blogs lately - barely have time to write my own posts. Lots of activities with my "kids" - one graduating middle school next month and one graduating high school!

All the best -


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Lesley said...

Ha, you are back, alive and kicking. Excellent! Now I hope you do wine and chocolate at your book group, which helps give valuable insight to the book, and everyone has a good time! Glad that you are feeling well and coping with motherhood and life in general.
Lesley x

greenwords said...

Lovely to read you. Love to hear about you savouring your health, about your gorgeous family. I'm going to add that book to my list. Will look forward to more updates from you!

Anonymous said...

I'm so happy you are doing well! After 13 yrs. of sickness & 1 yr of being mostly home bound, I have found mindbodh works like Mickel therapy, like dr. Sarno's work. I am not better yet but see myself on every page of those books & KNOW I am on the right track. The struggle I am having is, last night I read about Emily collingridge & I am so upset for her & her family. How horrible. I cannot even imagine her suffering. The problem is what caused her passing? Can dysfunction of the hypothalamus & CNS cause death? I don't know...I guess. I'm googling around. Those were rhetorical questions I guess. Im just confounded by this. Anyway, I truly am happy for your health & hope I will be able to be a mom someday soon too. :)

Ciara said...

Thanks Anonymous,

Yes, I understand your dilemmas. I know there are tragic rare cases where people do seem to die of ME and severe ME-like illness. I can't explain it either and I truly felt like I was dying at my worst monents of bedbound hell.

If you know you are on the right track - as i did - don't give up or get too distracted. Keep your healing feedback loop going. Keep your vision alive and it can come to pass...even if it takes longer than you think.

love C x