Hands Up if You're Scared!

 What a swirl of emotion. My first-born son going off to High School on a calm, sunny morning. 

It feels 'normal' and right and celebratory, but I am passively terrified. I am in a minority. This is the first time since the pandemic began, that I no longer have full control of whether COVID19 will come to our home. Russian Roulette springs to mind.

If I had real guts,  would I opt to home school my kids at this point? But that's not what they want. 

Here's the paradox - most mums seem to be saying it's good for kids to go back to school. Most mums secretly expect cases to rise in a few weeks. How could they not? You just have to pray that the cases aren't in your home.

At the start of the pandemic, when the media were selling the  Mostly Mild line, I wondered if it would be no bad thing to catch Covid and 'get it over with'. To get out the other side, have immunity, then go on holiday and any other freedoms you could help yourself to. 

Eh, no. No, Ciara. Sit down. 

The more we learn about the virus, the more my fear pervades. I watched Surviving the Virus on BBC 1 recently and urge you all to watch on catch up. I love Dr Chris and Dr Xand. 

A recent study shows three quarters of Covid survivors have heart damage. Previously healthy people! Brutal. Just, brutal. 

And yet, here we are sending our kids off  to school full time, instead of optional part time, thus increasing the chances of bringing the virus home.

I have been mostly supportive of the Scottish Government approach up until now - with two exceptions - I'd have implemented FULL border control and 2 week quarantines YONKs ago, and I'd ease the kids back part time, with less chance of so-called super-spreader outbreaks. 

I know I get a reputation for erring on the side of pessimism. I just think it's practical realism. It's not always popular, but it could be life-saving. Heart-saving. 

Meanwhile, the flower shop is closed today. I am taking poor, long-suffering Tess, Lady of the Sad Cough, to an Ear Nose and Throat doctor at the hospital. We need all the luck we can get. 

So there we are. Another ordinary day, far from ordinary. Hands up if you agree. 

Sheesh, We all know that you're a fearty too , Sita.